I have been growing in awareness of the different state of mind I have been in for the past few months. It seems like God is opening up every avenue for me to be able to concentrate on healing from the past. I've bargained with God before on not making me work on that until this "other" crisis was over. God has always held me to it, but it seems like I'm at a point in my life where no "crisis" seems to be happening. It's giving me a bit of freedom to explore this aspect of my life--one which I am great at avoiding naturally:)

So I really have no reason, other than the usual fear, to keep me from going through this part.
Here it goes....

Reflection on Quotes

On Being in Touch with Our Inner Child
"There is an innocence within me that already knows how to trust my Higher Power, to cherish life while holding it lightly, to live fully and simply in the present moment. I will allow that part of myself to come forward and nourish me as I continue on this journey."(from Courage to Change: One Day at a Time in Al-Anon II, page 82). Reprinted with permission of Al-Anon Family Group Headquarters, Inc., Virginia Beach, VA


This quote is inspiring to me as I continue the journey towards healing and as I learn of what has gone on in my life that has brought me to where I am today.

Those Thoughts in my Head

Once I come into contact with reactionary people, regardless of if it is just a characteristic of the person, I am discovering I am tending to retreat in one way or another. It’s very interesting. Even though I know in my head that this person who is reacting may even be “acting” out of a joke, I find I will speak less readily to that person right after the outburst.
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What sort of attachment lesson did I miss growing up? I feel I missed something because there is something that interferes with good and healthy relationships that I now have. I am finding fears that are not grounded in reality (which I guess fears don't necessarily come out of fantasy always:)) that bring anxiety. I am finding I am so blessed with good people in my life. And my "adult" self really works on trying to keep those relationships healthy, but my little "child" is crying out for some reassurance. And I know I've got to teach the child that it's all okay. I just wish I knew that lesson that I can share. So I'll keep working and trying and praying that my relationships remain healthy and that I can be the best person to those people in my life.